I need to vent. Yes, this is going to be a post full of fury and negativity. Please stop reading if you will use this to judge me in any fashion other than to know that I am hurt and feel disappointed.
For a long time I’ve wanted to work for a particular dot com company. Yay! Lucky me! With my college degree and the 9 years of experience I’ve gained since high school, I got the job! I’ve worked there since April and I love the company! I love our purpose and innovation. Purpose and innovation don’t make for a perfect situation though. Coming from a not for profit background, I’ve been shocked (sometimes pleasantly) at the way things in the FOR profit world work. Where’s the negativity?
We can all feel the rips, tears and sometimes slashes that the state of this country has left our businesses and our pocketbooks. This isn’t really my complaint. My complaint is that this does not give people the right to mistreat people. Since day two (day one was a total honeymoon period), I’ve felt worthless and miserable. I’ve never fit in and despite my best efforts; my talents are again being wasted.
I’ve tried to remain positive but I’ve pretty much thrown in the towel. The hardest part is that if a group of people are complaining about something and I add a little bit to the conversation, I’m lashed out against and people say things like, “Why do you hate, The Dot Com?” Hmmm, was I not just agreeing with you that life sucks right now? If I’m against you, I’m against you. If I’m with you, I’m against you! What can I do? Why am I not allowed low grade venting but you are?